(You could title this one: "Inside the mind of the Griever")
Yesterday, I mentioned a deep "missing" of My Sylvia. This morning, especially during breakfast, that feeling not only returned but was even stronger.
As I spoke to Sylvia, like I always do, I felt that tearful energy swell-up inside me very fast… out of nowhere. I couldn't stop it and just rode it out but before it could build to an highly-intense level, I saw a moth fly past me. I think this was Sylvia's way of "distracting me" / "breaking that Meltdown-grip on me".
- Just before breakfast, we noticed that it was a bit cooler in here today and this would allow us to run our heat-producing, de-humidifier. I placed it in the clothes closet of our bedroom and this may have disturbed that moth.
- Right now, it's in our Living Room, near the front door but I can't find it.
After breakfast, I went to that clothes closet, to see if there was any obvious sign of "moth activity". I didn't find any but I did find more mold on Sylvia's clothes! This is never a good thing! Even aside from the "mold" itself, finding mold means "I" have to "deal with it" and, because it involves "Sylvia's things", I immediately go into "panic-attack", "indecision" and just plain "chaos".
- It's been many, many months, since I've found any mold in our home.
So I got out this anti-mold spray we bought several months ago:
I couldn't "Reason" exactly what to do… I thought about just spraying those mold-spots… but would that be enough to eliminate the mold? I thought about washing those clothes… but should I "pre-anti-mold" them 1st?… I thought about putting a lot of that liquid into the Washer, while they are being cleaned.
I just grabbed the spray and coated a mold-spot with it. Then, using a paper towel, I worked the liquid into the fabric. The mold seemed to disappear right away. As I was looking for more mold-spots, I realized I was "unfolding" Sylvia's "folds". My girl folded this in her very special way and I DO NOT want to change that. Then I found 1 of Sylvia's hairs tucked inside 1 of the folds.
Now dealing with the start of another "Meltdown", I "decided to" / I "had to" NOT unfold her clothes! This is very important to me. I had to do the best I could… the best I knew how… to keep and protect Sylvia's clothes from mold, moths and whatever.
So I very carefully looked through this small pile of 3 or 4 blouses and 2 or 3 sweat-shirt-material items. I sprayed the mold and worked it in with the paper towels. I then carefully re-stacked them and placed them back where I found them. I then "generally" sprayed everything.
I left our de-humidifier running, in order to help remove any general moisture as well as the newly-introduced mold-spray.
As for the "moth", I still haven't found it but I did place "essential oil of peppermint" throughout our home. Yes, I'll be breathing it for the next day or so… but I have to protect Sylvia's things!
Today, I was browsing-through the "Grief" Postings on some of the Blogsites. I discovered 1 Posting where I just could not believe I was seeing the words I was reading…
- This person, I think is a "female" and the "wife" of someone who is currently in hospice. The word I could not believe was "sickie". She actually referred to he husband, in hospice, TWICE as a "sickie".
- I could state my personal feelings about this in 2 ways…
- 1 - In "my" opinion, she was being disrespectful, un-loving, un-caring and not at all compassionate about the other person. If SHE was about to cross-over and HER HUSBAND was remaining here, would she want him to call her a "sickie"?
- …or, I could take a big step back and this is what I would see…
- 2 - We all grow and evolve at our own pace. There is "right" or "wrong" in the way we "take-in", "learn-from" and "grow because of" the world around us. We're all doing the best we can.
Of course, your mileage may vary.
The title of this article is: "First Wave Of Ascension: Creating The First Wave Of True Superhumans; It’s Like Going Through A Death And Purification". This, and its accompanying 15-minute video, explain the "1st wave of Ascension".
While watching the video, the information which caught my attention is something I've heard from another Source recently…
- (At the 7:17-mark) "The highest-level Twin Flames on the Earth, play a major role in the "Event Horizon". A great multitude of illuminated Twin Flame key-holders shall lead the way and open the Cosmic Gate with the intense power of their combined Love and bring-forth this higher-vibrational perception called "the new Earth" and "new Heaven"."
- (At the 8:19-mark) "We say that after the first wave, Twin Flame key-holders go through the 5D Veil, they will begin their real work as male, female teams in the greatest service to others — helping the rest of Humanity cross the Great Rainbow Bridge."
Here's the link to the article:
Here's the direct link to the video:
This is Zap's Sunday update. Although he's been saying the same thing for a LONG time now, tonight's message contains a little more background on what has been happening from HIS perspective. Here are some excerpts:
- "THE GLOBAL LANDSCAPE IS PREPARED FOR THE BIG STUFF NOW AS IN THE HISTORIC ASSETS AND THE GCR. MANY INTELLIGENCE REPORTS COMING OUT NOW ALL SAY THE SAME THING THAT IN SEPTEMBER, IT ALL BEGINS. THE FOLLOWING INFORMATION IS BEING WIDELY CIRCULATED, AND IT IS IN KEEPING WITH WHAT IS OUT THERE."
- "IN THESE END TIMES, DO NOT LOSE FAITH OR HOPE. IT SEEMS THAT IN OUR BASE FEAR AND NEED FOR VALIDATION AND CONTROL WE HAVE LOST FAITH IN THE ABILITY AND WILLINGNESS OF THE UNIVERSE TO PROVIDE. LET GO AND LET GOD I SAY! THE UNIVERSE WILL INDEED PROVIDE. SEND OUT THE ENERGY AND THOUGHT FORM, AND LET IT DO ITS WORK. YOU DO NOT HAVE TO FIXATE ON IT AND RUN ABOUT FOLLOWING IT FROM PLACE TO PLACE, VISUALIZING, PLEADING, BEGGING, SUPPLICATING, PETITIONING, PUTTING IT DOWN ON 3X5 CARDS AND STICKING THEM WHERE THEY CAN BE IN YOUR FACE ALL DAY LONG, AND PUTTING ALL MANNER OF ENERGY AND THOUGHT PROCESSES ON IT, THERE IS NOTHING THAT WILL GET IT TO TURN INTO WHAT YOU REALLY WANT. NOTHING. NOT UNTIL YOU LET GO. IF YOU DON’T YOU WILL DO THE STRESS THING, BECOME SICK, AND GET GREY HAIR."
Here's the link:
Each time I read a new message from this site, I keep thinking "we're done… it can't get any better than this", then out pops an even MORE encouraging message. Here's what was Posted today:
- "Triumphal energetics are in process and continue to build."
- "Resonance of Light becomes the strength."
- "Flash points averted, yet flashes are viewed."
- "Pardons have been arranged."
- "Frescoes of Higher Energies are now in formation."
Here's the link: