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(Sylvia and I haven't Posted anything since 4/16/18)
- I had no idea how the following was going to go. I'm including it because some of you have asked me to provide an update on what's going on in my tiny world and because, "maybe", some of this information might help others.
It's now been 367-weeks since My Sylvia crossed-over. Because of the many years of physical closeness and the very deep Love Sylvia and I have for each other, in the beginning, some of you were concerned for my well-being. (Thank you for your thinking of us.)
The 3 or 4 Friends we have, live in Albuquerque, New Mexico, where Sylvia and I met. By now, they may have moved Sylvia and I into that part of their mind where "forgotten Memories" are simply thrown onto a pile in the corner.
The hundreds of Clients Sylvia and I had from our computer business have also, probably, forgotten that we ever existed.
At this point in Time, the only people who "may" be reading our Blogs are the handful of people Sylvia and I have come to know through the computer club we ran for many years, the consignment shop we worked in after Sylvia "crossed" and the few people who, maybe, accidentally discover our Posts while searching for something else. To all of you… Thank you for at least knowing Sylvia and I exist.
I'm really not "that" depressed right now but earlier today, I was.
Over these past 367-weeks, a few people have asked me how I fill my Days. As I've mentioned many times, it's basically "eat, sleep, go to work, do research on "when" Sylvia will return" and repeat the entire process the next Day. Through all of that. I do my best to continue to remain connected to My Sylvia as much as I can.
For the last week or so, before starting my nightly research, I've been frantically exploring "Modular Synthesizer Sequencers". Because of these car payments, we don't have any money to buy anything but I find myself doing research on these "automatic rhythm generators" as if it's very important. So HOURS go by. I read articles on them, watch videos on how they work and make notes. All this work may just be Sylvia's way of keeping me occupied… giving me something to do.
I haven't been able to play my Drums for about 4-weeks now, because I fell in a Tractor Trailer while unloading it. It was a fairly slow-motion, gentle fall but my foot missed stepping onto a special Step Stool. So my leg had to stretch even farther to reach the floor of the Trailer. This must have over-stretched my leg muscles a bit. It's almost completely healed. It's just annoying that I can't play my Drums!
- Also… I'm not really "accident prone" but I've noticed that this Unit (the body and its many Systems) has been damaged more on the 17-months of this job than ALL my previous jobs combined!… and, when I was a teenager, I worked on a few Construction Sites with my Dad!
So, the Memory that got me depressed today is of my "dog"… I was sitting here at my computer, researching musical instrument "Sequencers", when my mind drifted and hit a Memory of 1 of our Family Dogs. I love that dog. When the Memory surfaced, though, I couldn't find the information which tells me what happened to him. So I pushed my mind further to find out. After pulling in a couple of strings, I realized he had crossed-over a few decades ago, while I was living in another state. I still don't remember all the details, because I wasn't there, but the few particles my mind had pieced together were enough to cause me to just "stop". This Unit just "froze" / "paused" and I could feel some energy leave me… and a few "depression" molecules seep in. Hours later, as I sit here writing this out, I still feel sad because he's not here. I don't feel "as depressed" about Sylvia because I feel her around me throughout the day and we communicate with each other all the Time. With my dog, though, I haven't sensed him around me… probably since I last saw him, which, now seems like an eternity ago.
- Yes, I realize there is no "loss" of another and that it's all been programmed into us by the cabal. We will ALL get through this. It's just that… Waiting for the "Veil" to be removed is "sometimes" like starving while you're standing in a never-moving line that promises free food.
As for me being completely isolated… It's just me, Sylvia and our (stuffed) bear. In order to remain as connected as possible to Sylvia, I don't allow myself to interact with the "outside world" any more than I really have to. So, "no", nothing in my "existence" has changed much since Sylvia crossed-over… no Friends, no one to really talk to, no one to have a cup of coffee with… "Holidays?" what are those?… and this is fine. On some level, this is how Sylvia and I set this up. I would be ROYALLY upset that "Sylvia left me" but I'm not because I know that Sylva and I "together" decided to do this… in this way… at this point in Time.
I'm not asking for contact from anyone. I'm simply streaming this information. I had no idea where it was going but, now, it looks like I was just providing everyone with an update on our inner, day-to-day, world.
I've been TOTALLY sick of being on THIS side of the "Veil" for 367-weeks!… but I can't do anything about it because THIS is where Sylvia wants me to remain… at least until the "Veil" is removed.
I've mentioned "strange Animal behavior" before and have included at least 1 video from the following source. In watching the following 12-minute video, I thought about something I read, many months ago, about the "Master Program"… the computer software that controls this "Reality", as claimed by some people.
I think it was the part of the video where the Owl is just staring into that window. To "me", it seemed as though the "physical" part of the Owl was "intact" / "still a part of this Reality" but its "Subroutine" was missing or had been disconnected. So its "purpose" / "standard behavior" was missing. Leaving it not knowing what to do and simply "interacting with its immediate environment", which was the Human world surrounding it.
Watch the video and check-out his YouTube Channel where he's Posted a few other "odd Animal behavior" videos. Have any of you experienced this type of Animal behavior recently?
Here's the link:
His YouTube Channel: